feels like a divorce I wasn't married to this sickening prick I feel like I was. Engaged for a year three months. What a joke! He convinced my heart he was my soulmate.I fell for it. But..that beaky nosed creep, that ill twisted worthless piece of something out of a newyork city gutter had the nerve to skrew some random chicks and let them post on his myspace. My heart jumped into my throat and shattered. I knew he was up to something because his terrible abuse but I didn't know it would be this. Fortunately for me I have excellent googling skills; &I had to reread everything because it was so unbelievable to me; caught him red handed.Saved myself. I have given up 3 jobs, my business..friends for him. He was jealous of my family because I visited once every three months and on xmas. I have went through extreme verbal/mental abuse etc..crying everyday.wishing I was dead.Doubt I'll be able to have a relationship again. He was a bum,a fraud.Didn't know whyI loved him.still dont. He doesn't have a job, had me paying for his video games even when I quit my job for him; what a lazy.what trip. Yes world of I waisted years with a massive asshole, turned down plenty of quality suitors, trips around the world and whatnot and for what? He was no vast ocean of depth,no great sea of light, I tried to see deeply in a puddle, only thing deep was what he was reflecting. NOW I dont know if I should celebrate or cry. I can't get any of that back,my heart is mush. 4:59 am, here I sit,awake.. for the last two years I woke up at 2:30 am, because he has insomnia. If I slept in he made me feel like I didnt love him, what a crock. I would be having wild sex, just to spite him/for some reason I dont even want to do that. *sigh* Maybe I'll end up an old maid, old cat lady. This is probably how it happens. I have four cats. But I wont be crying, cooking, cleaning and paying for him to sit on his ass. Dont have friends because I had to give them up for him. Got to whine on divorce messageboard > . < Didnt tell my family all this or they would smack me for loving someone as ugly on the outside as he is in the inside. As for him, I hope he trips,falls and breaks his elongated nose that I once overlooked with his outrageously bobbing adams apple, pop with tha nose. Thank god I didn't marry that bozo.

HE let them post on his myspace?? That's the moment you lost me. No one has that kind of power. After that it was whining and moaning. Part that make me laugh . "I have given up 3 jobs, my business..friends for him." Who does that? Needless to say, you totally lost my sympaty with this post, take it to LTR.

what did it say on his myspace? specifiy? are you upset that he had a myspace, or that it had proof that he cheated?

what an a -hole Cant believe he was bad to you...I was so nice and loving and my wife cant stand me.

Be thankful you got out when you did I sense your angry which makes people ramble, but thats what the Difo is for. Hopefully you learned a lesson. Sounds like it took awhile for you to come to your senses but thankfully you didn't marry the loser. Suggestion: refrain from dating for awhile. Get to know yourself. Figure out what you want, where you want to go with your life, and just learn to like yourself. Otherwise you'll fall into the same trap again. Good luck!

be thankful My lesson huh.. You gotta learn some of your own. I like myself. --Damn these posts are just getting tiring to reply to.-- You shouldn't offer advice when non was asked for especially if your advice is trash and based on a loose opinion of me. I'm done replying to this nonsense. Be thankful.

Any woman that allows a man over her life has serious self-esteem issues. Rebuild your life and find out why you allowed him to do this to you and don't do it again.

Everyone makes mistakes. And everyone has self-esteem issues. You say this as if having issues gives others the right to treat you badly. Sometimes men and women go into relationships and their true self comes out. Sometimes we are already in the relationship before we realize that the person we are married to is sick. Yes, we should as people figure out what we can better about ourselves. But to blame our own "issues" for being abused and mistreated is ridiculous.

i could care less about a myspace account Hold up, I never said having issues gives others the right to treat me badly. Dont put words in my mouth. I love Him, not others, comprende? Having Issues didnt give him the right at all, I let it slide with him. You can't understand that or think it's wrong keep it to yourself kay. Plus you say "We" do this and "We" do that, I dont care what "WE" do. Don't include me with yourself unless you're damn sure I should be there. You psycho analyzed and generalized me. It is rude,you dont know me. You think you're some life guru or something? You ever happen to think I know me and my situation much better than you? How would you like it? You gotta handle Norma Jean, you know why Marylin Monroe changed her name? You should have stopped to think maybe I didnt want to get some email about your point of view on what I did wrong in a long term relationship when you knew absolutely jack shit besides what I wrote in bitching session post at what 5am or so. I just wanted to bitch on a random forum; some people punch a pillow I felt like bitching to a random faceless media. Didn't need psychoanalyzed, didnt need you to pick me apart. I tick how I tock and you can keep it to yourself instead of being rude while I'm having a hard time you could send me a website on hate cards or say congratz on getting out of that instead of this bs. Loving someone and putting up with their shit isn't a self esteem issue. I dont love you, I dont have to put up your shit as a self appointed shrink.